Eyeballs

Gahhhh. Well. My date was so sweet and funny and I really like being with them!!! I fudged uppp though, I think. I almost had a panic attack mid board game for no reason other than my brain likes to be dumb and freak me out in small public spaces and makes me feel trapped and it was so annoying because like, I couldn't do anything about it. BUT IT COULD’VE BEEN WORSE, I managed to stop it!!! Which was really good, like I was seriously contemplating running out of the place and like I don't know, fresh air is helpful. They were so nice about it which is super sweet, like, they were trying to ask me questions and telling me it was okay and I think that actually helped me get my mind off of things. But AGH, I felt so bad because they might've thought I didn't like them. I guess it’s something that happens to me sometimes and if someone likes me they’re going to have to know that. I guess. Man, they’re very sweet :( I tried explaining but it's all a blur and like, I have no clue what came out of my mouth. I think I fumbled unfathomably bad BUT IT WAS VERY NICE and IF THERE’S A NEXT TIME it’ll be so much better, I swear. We went to the kitty cafe after WHICH was so so so nice for me, but I think scarier for them cause kitties, but they were really cool about it. I love that place so much, it’s so relaxing and I love cats and yay. Gahhhh. They texted and said they liked me after which is like insane because whatever but I really like them. Anyways. And I want to see them again soon. And I hope I get to. 

I have a dumb interview today which I shall wing as usual because that seems to work. And I'll probably go home after to vent to my sister, although she doesn't date either so there's that. It shall be good :-)