Scary Girl

Man,

I'm so, so bad at socializing. I'm like, I don't know, I think I freak everyone out. I know how intense I can be and being blunt and awkward at the same time is not great. I think I scare everyone off :( I was trying to befriend that one guy but I think I scared him and I talked too much about my stupid interests and like I don't know. I feel bad that he's gonna have to run into me this week for class, but whatever, it's the last one.

I'm really just a girl but I genuinely think of myself as some kind of 6 headed monster because why else do people get scared when they have to interact with me??? I want to hide in bed, I'm the most awkward person in the world, and I think people are scared I'm gonna bite them. I don't know how to not be blunt or too much. I guess I'm okay with it but it makes me feel exposed and I can't really do anything about it. I wish people were more blunt so then I'd know what the heck is going on, really.

I'm making a truck for class (we have to make a toy) and it's a little silly. I wish I didn't choose something so outlandish. I haven't sewn in forever which is cool though. I guess that's the point. I still feel guilty for freaking that guy out, I'm sorrrryyyyy. :(