Soda Crackers

Me and the individual (?!??) watched a movie at their place last week and it was very nice :-) i’m so happy I met them. They’re just very sweet and lovely and I like being near them. I accidentally spilled soda on their bed and I was worried about the mess and scared they’d be upset so I apologized a lot and they said “why are you sorry?” in the softest tone ever, and that was so special to me because i’m used to being yelled at when I make mistakes. Oh man. I really like them a lot.

OH, also I got accepted into grad school! But. I think I’ll have to defer it for a year. I hope they’ll let me do that. Or maybe I should just do it. I don’t know and I don’t like that they want a response right now. I don’t know if i’m ready to pack everything and move somewhere two hours away by myself. I hope everything works out and I guess it has so far even if it tends not to seem that way in the moment. It’s fun to think that all the crud I’ve experienced has led me here and so I guess I have to remember that whenever i’m going through something dumb. I was going to go to college for childcare back when I was applying after high school and then BAM I was diagnosed with things which made me change all my plans and go into English which I am forever grateful for. I mean, what the hell would I do in childcare, that is so not me at all.

I wrote this last night!!! And then TODAY I’m suddenly in a relationship with said individual?!?! I don’t even know what to do, I’ve never been in one before. I’ve gotten really comfortable with just, like, watching and reading about other people’s relationships so I’m realizing I might be terribly bad and very inexperienced at my own. I didn’t expect to be in one, ever. But I’m really happy, and I don’t think much will change because we already kind of acted like we were in one and so yay :-) Now I can go “MY PARTNER AND I” to people, muahahaha. That sounds so fancy. I'm really lucky that I get to experience something new. 

ALSO, I'm almost finished my neocities layout! I'll have to like, put it all in there and make it work which will take forever, BUT THEN I can get serious about writing because I'll have a real spot for it. HUZZAH. 

Okay, bye :-)