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Hello again. 

I was holding off on writing until I could control the dumb css of my blog (or whatever). I didn't realize all of this was so finicky. Or I'm just making it finicky.

WHAT IS THE POINT OF IT ALL???

I've been thinking about this essay I found on neocities.com. I'm not really sure it applies to me since this is blogger, and I'm also unsure if I even agree with it. I think I agree with the issue of lacking passion, and I think it's pretty uncool to steal someone's design (why does there need to be multiples of the same website? Don't you want to make it a home of your own?). BUT I remember browsing neocities websites (what some might call "passionless"), and thinking they were so cool! melonland is COOL! Anything is cooler than a boring ol' minimalistic page that modern websites are so fond of. (I KNOW MINE IS MINIMALISTIC, BUT IT'S FOR THE PURPOSES OF A BLOG, NOT A COOL CLICK-Y PAGE!!! THIS ISN'T A WEBSITE TO SELL YOU CRAP!!!). 

I feel a little insecure about the purposes of my blog. I don't think I made this without reason, there's something personal in it for me, but I also don't expect people to care or even necessarily want to read my massive blocks of text. It's significant to me: I like to write about everything on my mind, and seeing all my problems laid out in text, listed off and categorized, feels like everything will be okay. I like the idea of having a space of my own, my own "home" on the internet.

Speaking of homes, one part of the essay, arguing for more passionate blogs, says: "if you think no one will care, and that's why you stay away from it, write about it anyway. I care," but a few sentences earlier it says: "[neocities] does not deserve another empty personal site from someone with an empty life." And, yeah, I don't know. I don't think I have a lot to offer, other than offering something to myself. I think that's what art is. I don't think it has to be meaningful to everyone to have significance. I don't mean to suggest that I am taking this seriously (the original author is totally over it), but there was a response on Reddit, of whose username and website I devastatingly forgot, which referred to the many neocities blogs (passionless or not) as "gentle porch lights in a dark, deceptive city," asking people to "turn yours on, let us know you’re home," which is very sweet, and something I'd like to do with this project of mine.

The reason I didn't use neocities for this blog, though, was because I think the community is a tad bit immature/obnoxious for me, which is totally fine!!! Just not what I'm really going for, I guess. Like everything is a little bit too cute, and too much. I don't know. Which fits their purpose!!! Also it's not really meant for blogs, I think. More of like, to display your cool web design, or art, or something. I just want to write until I've got nothing left to say.

Producing an effortless project for the sake of occupying space can be a little sad, only because there is so much potential to create and so many opportunities to take advantage of. Hell, hop on blogger, load up a template, and customize it to your hearts desire with very little coding-experience!!! I have absolutely no coding-experience (and absolutely hate it), but now I feel like I've learnt a little something, which is cool! And I've gained a new hobby! But also, in a sea of corporate nonsense, any website made by a real-life human being for the purposes of sharing their real-life human being lives (however mundane) is important to me. So yeah, that's all I have to say. This was a bit of a boring blog entry, and I'll format it properly later. Okay, see ya :-)