Projects

Hello again. 

I was holding off on writing until I could control the dumb css of my blog (or whatever). I didn't realize all of this was so finicky. Or I'm just making it finicky.

WHAT IS THE POINT OF IT ALL???

I've been thinking about this essay I found on neocities.com. I'm not really sure it applies here since this is blogger. I'm also unsure if I even agree with it. I think I agree with the issue of lacking passion, and I think it's pretty uncool to steal someone's design (why does there need to be multiples of the same website? Don't you want to make it a home of your own?). I remember browsing neocities websites (what some might call "passionless"), and thinking they were so cool! melonland is COOL! To me, anything is cooler than a boring ol' minimalistic page that modern websites are so fond of. (I KNOW MINE IS MINIMALISTIC, BUT IT'S FOR THE PURPOSES OF A BLOG, NOT A COOL CLICK-Y PAGE!!! THIS ISN'T A WEBSITE TO SELL YOU CRAP!!!). 

I feel a little insecure about the purposes of my blog. I don't think I made this without reason, there's something personal in it for me, but I also don't expect people to care or even necessarily want to read my massive blocks of text. It's significant to me: I like to write about everything on my mind, and seeing all my problems laid out in text, listed off and categorized, feels like everything will be okay. I like the idea of having a home on the internet.

Speaking of homes -- one part of the essay, arguing for more passionate blogs, says: "if you think no one will care, and that's why you stay away from it, write about it anyway. I care," but a few sentences earlier it says: "[neocities] does not deserve another empty personal site from someone with an empty life." I don't know. I think your site doesn't need to offer anything to anyone as long as it does something for you. I don't think it needs to be universally meaningful to have significance. I don't mean to suggest that I am taking this seriously (the original author appears to be totally over it), but there was someone on Reddit who referred to the many neocities blogs (passionless or not) as "gentle porch lights in a dark, deceptive city," asking people to "turn yours on, let us know you’re home," and I thought that was very sweet, and something I'd like to do with this project of mine.

Producing an effortless project for the sake of occupying space can be a little sad, only because there is so much potential to create and so many opportunities to take advantage of. Hell, hop on blogger, load up a template, and customize it to your hearts desire with very little coding-experience! I have no prior coding-experience, but now I feel like I've learnt a little something, which is cool! And I've gained a new hobby! But also, in a sea of corporate nonsense, any website made by a real-life human being for the purposes of sharing their real-life human being lives (however mundane) is important to me. So yeah, that's all I have to say. This was a bit of a boring blog entry, and I'll format it properly later. Okay, see ya :-)