Off my Chest

!My ChEm In OnE dAy, My ChEm In OnE DaY!

Why do I look so short, I'm 5'8!

I'm so excited, I've done nothing but wait for the show and make sure I know every lyric!!! EVERYONE BETTER BE DANCING!!! MCR isn't my favourite band, but it is a band I'd most like to see perform because I know Gerard is really great at what he does!!! I've been a fan for maybe eight years (? or at least since I was 14) but I was never obsessed with them, lately I have been though. Anyways, today I went to a giant antique market (with my mom, who else), and I found some earrings that matched my tights, so that was nice :-) I took some pictures of the concert outfit with my messed up camera, but the blurriness perchance adds to the effect. So anyways, I will report back with more on how it went, but this'll have to be it for now because I can't be bothered to move these images around in a nice way and if I write more they will just fly off the page.

NEVERMIND!!!

This is unrelated -- and written like three hours later -- but I went through some of my old likes and comments on Instagram, and in the most direct of words, I can only say: what the fuck was I doing? This was TWO to THREE YEARS AGO, and I was out here liking the stupidest shit for everyone to see. I am so embarrassed to everyone who knew me then, I was truly such an idiot. On a serious note, at that time I was so incredibly angry at the whole world, I was being groomed by a man a decade older than me, and I was so, so alone. I took my anger out on completely the wrong people and I am deeply ashamed and regretful. While I'm grateful that I was able to turn to feminism as it allowed me to escape from my situation, I found myself sucked into agreeing with anti-transgender rhetoric and for that I am disgusted and disappointed with myself. I'm a proud trans-inclusive radical feminist, and while I still hold a lot of anger within me, I'm learning how to supplement it with love and kindness. I wish I learnt this sooner, but I'm glad I got there eventually. And I'm relieved that it didn't take too long. No one will ever know this, but I was inspired by a lot of my peers (classmates? I don't know) around me who managed to have so much love in their hearts whilst passionately fighting for what they knew was right. And they were right.