Planets

HELLO WORLD!!!

OKAY, well not much has changed since my last stupid post but I feel very fulfilled because I've been working on a lot of things that I actually enjoy :-) Also I applied to grad school last week, wahoo!!! Who woulda thought that if you do things instead of moping around you won't be so bleh!!! 

I'm really enjoying working on my neocities site, and digital drawing has been pretty cool. I'm very clearly no artist, and I think this is the first time I've ever like actually seriously tried to draw something, but I like what I've done so far. I am incredibly inspired and obsessed with online world games such as Ourworld, so this is my little planet :-) I will be putting little things and objects around to click on which will take you to different pages!!! All I have right now is that satellite thingy, which (if I figure it out properly) will play music and will be able to be clicked on and off. 

ALSO, I started volunteering at a school library every Friday and that's been a little stressful because I have to go home on Thursdays, work for six hours on Friday, get bombarded with kids asking silly questions, THEN go back to school for class at 4, THEN do a five hour DnD session :^d. Lord. I thought that having some library experience might help my otherwise kind of bare application, we shall see. Otherwise it's still nice :,-)!

What else. Oh, I've also been writing poetry that I quite like. I'm really looking forward to having a space where I can actually share the things I'm proud of. It's not that I'm not proud of the space I have here, but it's not exactly something I want everyone to see. Like, it's okay if the occasional stranger reads about my stupid life, but this is more of a place to dump all my personal garbage. 

Last week (?) My sister and I went to the clurb for the first time because it was emo night and they were playing MCR (they played LIKE FOUR MCR SONGS, WHAT THE HECK) and it was so, so, so much fun!!! I'm not even kidding I danced for like five hours straight from 10-2am and THIS IS COMPLETELY SOBER BY THE WAY!!! I DON'T NEED ALCOHOL TO HAVE FUN!!! Everyone there was super cool too. I would love to go again, but I wouldn't enjoy it if they didn't play the kind of music I like. Also the folks that like ""emo"" (for lack of better word, you know what I mean) music tend to be super cool, and they were!!! Oh but because I am incredibly lazy, I couldn't move (!!!) my entire body for a week after. My muscles were fudged up. Like, my calves have never seen that much action in their entire lives. So now i'm incredibly buff, yay.

Okay, the only problem is I have NOT been doing school-work, because I don't know. I'm done, okay. I'm graduating in two months. This week has been the least productive in forever. 

Alright, I'm gonna go!!! SEE YA!!!

So that was not the end of it, the guy that I used to have a big crush on came over to hang out with my roommate and I genuinely forgot how to move my hands and my whole body started shaking, so that's really cool. What the heck. Does anyone know how the mere presence of an individual has the capacity to make someone else stop working??? This is so cringe. I haven't seen this guy in years so I figured on the off chance I ever ran into him again I'd be all good, but nope. If I had known I would've hid in my room and not been making nasty pasta while wearing snoopy pjs but okay, yeah sure. And I didn't even LOOK at him, I only saw him from the corner of my eye. Jesus Christ. So I'm actually just gonna end it all but it's fine because whatever?!!! Although I will say it's kinda nice to know that I'm actually able to have feelings for someone else, because what if all that stopped working!!! And I forgot that he sounds like a literal angel, but whatever, moving on and continuing to get over it. 

This is the worst post to date and I sound like a five year old, SORRY