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HELP:

I'm actually the dumbest person alive? I feel so bad, I'm like actually very dumb and I can't keep my mouth shut??? I told this guy I think he's very cute in the worst way possible and god forbid. I have no idea what overcame me and compelled me to do that??? I don't do that. I mean I do that, but not like, it doesn't usually become so ew like this. I genuinely might've been possessed. Like, FUCK. Duh, he is cute, whatever, and NOW HE probably thinks I'm like a humongous creep, and I feel so so guilty for making him uncomfortable. Sometimes I just say things and sometimes I give compliments that are, like, I don't know, honest, but super inappropriate. Stuff just comes out of my mouth and that's not even an excuse here since I literally texted it. I'm actually doomed and I should probably throw myself off a cliff tomorrow. He's OBVIOUSLY involved with someone, which is so great and totally cool, but I feel so, so bad for making him uncomfortable. Girl, what the heck was that.

I don't even know why I'm writing this here for me to be embarrassed about later - but, BUT, let this be a reminder TO NOTTTTTT say weird shit to people even if it's TRUE?!?! Oh my god. Don't do it. I hate being a human being, i'm so so bad at it. It's fine but it's so not and now I have to see this poor guy like three times over the next two weeks. I'm so so sorry guy, I'm super dumb, i'm socially inept, etc. I can't even sleep it off because I already napped, whattt. So I totally ruined a sort-of friendship, that's a first for me. It's whatever, I'm gonna disappear soon anyways. Jesus christ.