Elevator Love Letter

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I had so much fun. It was a little fancier than I'm used to, gosh. My favourite part was getting to be with Z all day, and then probably the bus and the train, AND then the view from the hotel; it had a ginormous window and I could've watched the cars go by for hours. I wouldn't mind at all living in a big city, I am so fascinated by the windows, the lights inside of them, and how they all have their own worlds. It's been a week since the trip and I'm scared at how fast time is moving. Life, for me anyways, is not changing for at least a few months, but Z is leaving at the end of April. I don't know how they're feeling, but I'm finding it hard. I hope I can go back to managing myself on my own, because I had gotten quite good at it. Most of the time. It's frustrating that all it took was one person and suddenly I'm anxious about things. It's not that I'm dependent or anything, but I don't know, I guess it was easy and comfortable not really having anyone because then I didn't have to worry as much. Or I guess I just worried about different things then. I don't mean to be someone who thinks they don't need friends or relationships  - I think they're extremely important - they are just a very stressful but very lovely thing to have. I guess this is what people talk about.
It'll be a four hour bus/train ride to see them when they're gone, and that's if it even runs. I love public transit though, so that's not the problem. I'm afraid that we'll both get busy and won't make time for each other anymore and things will fizzle out, as they often do. I don't think it will for us, or at least I won't let it. Tomorrow we're gonna cuddle and get dinner and it'll be nice but I'm just excited to be with them, we could do nothing and I'd be content. 

ALRIGHT, see ya laterz :-)