Now What?

I have come to the belated realization that I spend far too much time moping about my situation, thinking about my appearance, and worrying about the future than creating or even attempting to better myself. I used to feel as though everything was a series of distractions, one after the other, until the big change would magically occur and everything would be perfect and wonderful. Well, regardless of whether or not such a change makes its way into my life, time is still passing and it's up to me to decide what to do with it. I want to have something to show for it all, at least something more than ten long-winded, depressing journal entries. So anyways, all that being said, I'm thinking of ending this website's very short run and starting fresh -- or if not that, I'd like to engage my brain into writing creatively. As much as it helps to journal my thoughts, I don't get anything out of it other than temporary relief. Everything I feel has only been translated into another media, it hasn't turned into anything meaningful. SO, I'd like to dedicate the month of August to creation, and I hope that I will come out of it with new parts of me to keep. Does this mean I'll stop playing defunct flash games for two hours everyday??? No. Will I still find something to complain about? Yes. But with my newfound understanding of html/css, and motivation to make my life more than it is -- I WILL BE DOING THINGS!!!!11